Happy?

I'm thinking new start, new beginning, new guy. Bit more hope.

Well not exactly new, i've known him a while. Just glad he gave it the chance.
I don't know why i overlook things when they're stood in front of me. Guess i overcomplicate things. Or just think they're too good to be true.

Guess i was so caught up in not trusting people, i forgot the guy i did. It's odd what you realise when you reflect on things. I'm glad i took the time out to this time. I never really knew what it was that lead me to putting up the barrier i did. I guess past events have hurt me too much to allow anyone in. I'm too scared to get close to someone, cause i fear the rejection or the abandonment of them. Or i feel i just don't deserve them. Which may end up being a good thing, as it can keep me grounded and level headed. But it seems to do more harm than good of late.

And to be honest. I'm a little sick of it. And would quite like to jump off the edge now :)